TRIGGERED TO THE MAX!
I kind of hesitated writing this e-mail, but I'll explain why soon!
So, RIGHT after you left, grandma hurriedly called me over, and said, 'Please, can you wash the dishes? I'm too tired.'
and I said, 'Of course, Grandma.'
However, before I could even take a stride to the sink, she stopped me to tell me stories. At first, it was the boring usual, stuff like. 'Want to know what a good deal I got once? I paid only 200 lei for these pots that were worth 300! It was amazing...'
So I was polite and smiled and nodded blah blah.
Then, it evolved into something worse... she just started telling me how the thieves stole our stuff from Poiana Sarata, and how much work she did. I was polite still.
Then, she began telling me about Liviu, her sister, and a lot of other people, before it eventually reached her brother (I don't know it was some weird name like Tiki).
She was telling me how he did very bad living a super religious way, and she told me that you and mami were doing the same, forcing us to live something we didn't want, not letting us see things, enjoy things blah blah.
She said, quote, 'They think life is all serious and about prayers and church... but no,' head shake. 'it's about being free and living fun, and looking at movies and going to places...'
'You see, where even is your tv? why don't you have even that??? It's so wonderful, it tells you about so many amazing things.."
I was like, 'Grandma, can you not see we have those laptops and phones?? We can search anything we want..'
but she shook her head and was like, 'no... no thats not it.'
I honestly forgot some of the things she said, but here are the main things she was pestering me about.
1. How parents aren't always right (especially yours), and how I'll somehow WAKE UP AND REALIZE EVERYTHING, MY WHOLE LIFE, WAS WRONG!! BECAUSE I LISTENED TO MY PARENTS WOw.
2. Post and church isn't good. post is bad, 'cause she says so, and she gave me a few examples of people she met that didn't fast. MOST of them were because they had some medical problem. She said, 'How does fasting make you a better christian?? It's a prostie.' Too much church isn't good either apparently!1!1. It's also a waste of time to her. And then she started roasting Bunicu, and said, 'What good did going to church bring him? Nothing if you ask me... I always try to keep him to stay at home... but sometimes he just doesn't listen...'
3. One out of ten of families are christian, while the rest are 'normal' (in her words). She says it was such a horrible thing you guys did, by making us meet only christian people and befriending only them!1! Your parents should've made you become friends with normal people! the none christians cus they're the only sane people!!
4. She began ranting about how she is so sad that I don't have friends and that I only stay at home. I said. 'Okay, grandma, but in america I always went out, and had plenty of friends and activities. Here there isn't much, or I've already seen these things (like shops and other random garbage).' She shook her head and said, 'Ahh. if I were you, I'd ask to come to grandma's house for three days. Then I'd go and hang out with Lidia or some friends and go to shops or a cofetarie and hang out! or watch tv and be trending!'
The last thing that MADE ME SO MAD was that she said. 'For now, I know you won't change but, maybe when you grow older, you're gonna realize what a life you've been living. not going to places, not meeting people, no tv... it's sad when I speak of you of these wonderful things. Listen, when you finally wake up and realize everything, I just want you to remember that I was the one who helped you free yourself from your misery. Please, remember it and try and help your siblings too! Let all my words sink in your head, and think about them hard!! I know you'll come to your senses soon.'
THE REASONS that this made me mad was
a) she came to ME because she thinks I'M WEAK! I'm in the 'vulnerable' teenage state right now, where my brain is the softest and most gullible, and she tried to BRAINWASH me so hard!!. She probably tried to change Codrin too, but realized he was hopeless because he was so disrespectful. At least I'm nicer, so she came after me like a HAWK!
b) ok now here is the OUTRAGEOUS part! After this, I was silent, scowling at the floor because I had yet to wash the dishes. However, I wasn't budging an inch, because I didn't want to get near Bunica. Then she comes and says, 'Are you upset?"
Lol, yes!
But I kept silent, and just stared out the window, my lips pursed.
And then she hugs me and kisses me (ew), laughs and steps away. Then she turns again and says, softly. "You know, you don't have to tell your dad or mom all of this." I look at her. She shrugs. "I feel like you should make a room in your brain and put these words in them and not tell them! Just let them cook in your brain..."
And I kept silent more.
"You're not gonna tell them, are you?"
"I can't say anything right now." I said, because idk, I was mad.
But I knew I was gonna say anyway.
She was silent also after that, but came after me once in a while, telling me not to tell you. Then she said it might make you guys sad, and that's why I hesitated, but I thought it must be for the best.
And then the garage opened, and she hurried to me and said. "Why don't you just tell them that I was telling you a story about Liviu and Poiana sarata? Then you wouldn't lie and nobody would get hurt."
Ughhhhhhhh.
I was confuzzled (confused + puzzled) on what to do. but decided on sending an e-mail anyhow.
So yeah.
I didn't say everything, mostly because I don't remember!1 but yeah it was horrible. And I was triggered because nobody came to save me!!
well anyway. bye!
Also... if you don't confront her about this it would be kinda easier for me,... if u do talk to her, she'll hate me forever. soooo
